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Friday, January 28, 2022

Just A Woman

When I am like water, flowing easily,

letting people around me have me as much as they want...

Being a giver, I am loved BUT wasted. 

I am not valued.

Then, I block my emotions,

I turn into ice.

I refuse to give in. I refuse to be used and wasted.

I want to be valued.

So I am boiled. I am pushed to my limits to melt down eventually and be able to quench the thirst of a man.

and so they have their way,

I am boiled. But this time i am boiled a little too much 

and i vaporize, I go away. 

Away, where i can never be caught...

Can never be trapped. 

but then when i reach the sky,

I reach the space where I feel I am alone. I want to be one with the same people again...

Its okay to be used...

Its okay, I repeat to myself.

I make myself believe.

And so I fall...fall happily creating rainbows to embrace my very own.

They feel me on their faces, and they smile and greet me,

A lot of me still goes wasted

but I realize I am not the only giver

the ones quenching their thirst of love with me survive on my love

they may take me for granted 

but its me and only me they want and not some substitute

I am therefore valued

I am a woman. 

I am a nurturer. 

I am happy. 

Friday, January 21, 2022

Lyrics to My New Song - I Think I Am Crazy a Lil

I think I am crazy a little

But guess you are more than to settle
For...I love the air,
Brushing my hair
I love the blues
Loving me through
And through and through
Happiness evades the devil
And devil is me
But when I am God-like
I am saintly than thee
You can’t be me
Coz you don’t want to know
How much it is that I can show
The world needs me
As much as I need it
To breathe
But to be free
I need nothin
Not even you
Coz I know I wanna be heard
But not when I am not heard by you
I don’t want a pair of ears
I just want to be free
Coz free’s me
And freeze me
If you can
Coz you cant
You just wanna know me
So you can know yourself
Coz it’s not me
But it’s you who needs help
I am cynical
I am lovable
I am a little crazy
Hey let that be
Coz that’s me
You don’t come in my way
Coz I have my own way
And if you do
You cant undo
Love yourself?
Then have some mercy
And spare yourself from being you
Coz I maybe crazy
But I ain’t you
You ain’t nobody
But somebody,
whom everybody wants to forget
So go away
And be Mr. Perfect
Coz you ain’t crazy
You don’t have it in you to be crazy
Coz crazy means to be the real you
And you can’t be you
Coz you are scared to be you
And me? Nope… can’t be…
Coz I am crazy a little
And crazy is free!!!
You cant be me!